Saying farewell to motherhood

Making the decision not to have children is one thing. What happens after you've made that decision is a whole other story

I always thought I would be a mother, right up until the afternoon I walked into my husband’s home office and told him I no longer wanted to be one.  We had been trying to get pregnant for years at that point, with months of perfunctory baby sex that left us exhausted and snarly with one another.  I’d shoved fistfuls of expensive herbal pills down my th…